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Thursday, August 27, 2009, 11:34 PM
SHIFTED.

I've shifted to http://psychedelicorama.wordpress.com for the time being!




Tuesday, August 25, 2009, 9:57 PM
roar.

I'm so tired it's not funny :(

Think lethargic. It's driving me nuts.

There's this little pounding going on in my head. Boom boom boom. Very annoying.

One down, one more to go.




Monday, August 24, 2009, 10:05 PM
Telegram.

So my Monday wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. It's the idea of school lah. Readings and the academic stuff. Grrrrr. Haha.

The cool weather feels really good. Reminds me of the joy of a good snuggle at home. (:

This is what I will say in my telegram to you, if we were living in the past.

I like to think about you. I think about you, frowning and fussing over the alignment of the palmguard film. I think about you, sitting next to me in front of the television, a cup of noodles between us. I think about you, when I feel like giving up.

Miraculously, thinking about you makes me feel better when things get tough.

(:

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9:24 AM
Blue blues.

In ranting mode.

Something is seriously wrong with Blogger. Terrible. And I've been wanting to post photos for so long! Hmmph. Technology glitches.

Woke up feeling a little grumpy at myself, probably due to the lack of proper sleep lately, so I still feel somewhat lethargic. Thinking about the long week ahead only makes the grumpiness worse =x And all the group presentations etc... Urgh. Sorry, I couldn't help it.

I have been staring at the tiny words on my readings for so long and till now my mind still draws a huge blank. Maybe my brain is ramming itself against my skull trying to get some good ideas right now, I don't know, but yeah it's a very, very dry spell.

So I have got myself a steaming mug of Ho-ho-ho-Horlicks and coffee buns to make myself feel better about everything.

What I really yearn for is just some good kick-back-relax days, think about nothing but indulge in some guilt-free fun. Hmmph.

Positive thinking darling! That's what Cunzheng will say. Yes yes, I'll remember that.

Listening to Jonas Brothers, When You Look Me In The Eye.

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Sunday, August 23, 2009, 6:37 PM
All in one night.

Went down to Phuture to support Youying at her hall pageant, and it was great fun at the playground in between everything.

It was Friday, 10pm or so. Felt kinda sick of clubbing all of a sudden, not like I club all the time (quite obviously, it was only my second or third time) so after awhile the whole thing just kinda got stale and all my excitement just died off, like, really, I just wanted to get out of there, fast. No looks or figure to hang around in clubs anyway, so ah, heck it. I see all the pretty lil girls gyrating along with the music and oh god, I felt so old in there. Yes, someone please save me.

I miss the mango marguerita though; dangerously delicious stuff. (:

So in a way I was truly glad and relieved to be able to spend a quiet afternoon with the boy yesterday, after all the noisy things that was going on and I couldn't quite stand it all, and I still feel quite blessed to be able to share that little respite with him, even though the time was short. Thank you my dear, I love you too.

Looking forward to all my Fridays and Saturdays for now, and in a way, I'm really just hoping life wouldn't be that bad. Am still getting the hang of school though, and it's already week 3. I've got to survive, somehow.



HIM: But I will still rant and complain about it (life) la. That's me. Haha.

ME: I know, cos I rant about life too. Maybe that's what we're both here for, to rant and complain to each other but know that we will still love one another for who we are.

HIM: beams (:



I forgot the exact words I used, but that was what I was trying to say, anyhow.

It's only August. I'm telling you, there's gotta be so much more to life than right now.

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Thursday, August 20, 2009, 6:21 PM
An apple a day.

So on a bright Monday morning I made my way down to school. I was going to have a long day ahead.

I swear I was so excited, because all I could think of was I AM SO GONNA GET IT TODAY, period. The queues behind me got longer and longer, a parade of kids busy chattering away. The aircon in there was so cold, my hands were struggling to write legibly. There was the faint heartache at watching the money leave my hands, but ah, heck it. Haha. So. Notebook, check. Adapter, check. Bundle, check. YES.

YES YES YES.

Only one problem. I wasn't going to lug that bag of things all around school! So thank god for Gillian's hall, though I must say the travelling was horrible. So yay, my lovely Macbook Pro (: Cunzheng was such a dear to help me too. Thanks darling.

School's okay so far, though I seriously need more self-discipline or else all I'm doing is just accumulating the pile of readings until they become an avalanche or something big enough to crush me to death. My brain's still getting used to the idea of school. And because this week is Union Week, there's darn alot of activities going on in the campus, so I feel kinda lost amidst the throng of everything. People, noise, chatter, everywhere! Haha.

The one thing I look forward to everyday is the moment when I end my last lesson, because by then I'm dying to get home. Luckily I'm not in hall, or else I'll be bawling every night because I think, home is still the best place to be, it's simply irreplaceable.

I want to continue seeking comfort in the people I hold closest to my heart, to remember them as the loved ones whom I care for, very much. Sometimes I feel very overwhelmed by the transitionary pains, and I want to just give it all up, but I also know that it's part and parcel of life, of growing as a person, so I should learn to embrace and endure it? Yeah.

Grant me strength. Well, I know I can always look forward to the weekends too. I miss you dear Cunzheng. Have fun at dinner! (:

Time for dinner, and more readings to be done. TGIF.

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Friday, August 14, 2009, 3:11 PM
Thank God It's Friday!

Getting new textbooks will make me so, so broke this sem. I cannot imagine having to pore over those books =x Or worse, having to lug them around school or something. Oh, these are the times when I wish I stayed in hall. Haha.

Random, but do you realise that when you walk into a lift already full of people and you're the last person to enter, nobody will look you in the eye when you're directly facing them in the small lift space? They will be looking everywhere else, or pretending to look at something, anything, but into your eyes. HAHA. Funny people, aren't we?

I think for this sem, I can really look forward to the Monday Blues and TGIFs, all credits due to my timetable. Sure, I have a 5-day week, but I'm could get used to it, and really just look forward to every Friday.

Lecture was good today, and I like the lecturer for her candour and organised way of lecturing. Good, good. Now I'm just seeing stars when I try to read and comprehend my little sets of readings, which are still piling up steadily. I shall aim to finish reading them over the weekend or something.

Cannot, cannot wait for tomorrow! And the weekends! BEAMS. Darling, I'm yearning for some cuddles (:

Okay, time to get moving and to get things done, if not I'll never hear the end of my mom's nagging when she's home later.




Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 10:05 PM
One too many.

I woke up this morning in a frenzy, and immediately dreaded what was coming next - Fastest Fingers First, again.

But my frustrations soon turned into relief, so I'm glad. Now, I'm just getting annoyed all over again after looking at the massive readings and documents; they are really freaking me out. I have absolutely no idea where to begin preparing for tutorials and seminars and assignments. It's depressing, and yet making me so breathless =x Gotta catch up, catch up!

Caught UP with Kuza, and it is simply a fantastic, touching and memorable movie. It's one of those that I want to watch over and over again; to laugh when Carl and Russell and the stupid colourful bird launch into their adventures together, and to cry when the touching moments strike me. Loved it. At least I got to take a breather today.

Okay, I'm back to printing my readings and course schedules. Looking forward to this Saturday to spend some quiet moments with cz; it's the only thing that keeps me going now. Haha, okay I exaggerated. I will survive this, I will, I will survive this, I will...

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009, 9:55 PM
What a way to start the semester!

Lecture was not bad today, except for the fact that we were all conned by the prof! What a way to remind us that lectures aren't simply about taking notes. To quote the prof after an hour into the 'lecture' : "So, welcome to HS103, social problems in a global context." *big smile* Seriously. I need to get used to this again.

Lunch was pretty good, probably cos' I was starving. The weather was SO humid, we were sweating buckets of sweat everywhere we went. Really want to thank Jeremy, Yus, and Jeannie, for accompanying me around school, and for climbing up the endless stairs with me to get my concession card at the office. I really am considering wearing just shirt and shorts to school, cos the heat is just too much to take! Time for a shopping spree soon. (:

And SERIOUSLY. Technology just has to fail on me today. Of all times, it has to fail me at this crucial period of time. Sigh. The desktop is hopelessly down, and because I logged in 5 minutes late, I didn't manage to get my electives at all. HOW? The STARS system is really flawed, and so unfair. I was fuming mad at it (I still am, but I've calmed down by now) because it couldn't log me in for 5 whole minutes even after registration opened. Hmph. Fastest fingers first? Yeah, I lost that round. Lessons learned. Now I can really understand why it's so frustrating. But, I will survive. I have to.

For now, I am thankful that I have no lessons tomorrow, but it also means I have to catch up on readings and call up the stupid computer technician for help again. This whole thing just sucks. What a way to start my semester. *grumbles* I still want to catch UP too. Decisions, decisions.

I'm tired of being frustrated. This wasn't the way I thought things would be.

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Sunday, August 9, 2009, 3:45 PM
This was not what I thought it would be.

I came across this website, and it made me smile all over again. It will make you smile too. (:

NUS Rag is over, and from the FB photos I can tell it was a really fun-filled and exuberant event for all the raggers, which is good. Cunzheng looked really different with all the makeup on, but I'm glad he's enjoying himself too. (:

Met Amal to window shop at Ion Orchard yesterday afternoon, and it was f-ing crowded. Where the hell is the recession? Never mind, at least I know Singaporeans are so willing to contribute to the recovery of our economy! (:

There are very tempting sales going on at Uniqlo, Fox and so on, and urgh, it was hard trying to find what I really wanted there, and even if I did find a nice shirt, they didn't have the sizes anymore. Oh well. That's why they say the early bird catches the worm, haha.

And oh oh! We had 3 Dunkin' Donuts each; left me f-ing full HAHAHA. Not bad not bad, but I still prefer the ones from Donut Factory, cos' of the bigger variety they have! ( Sorry Mao haha ) And urgh, I felt so guilty having loaded up on all the carbo from the donuts after that. But it's okay, at least I got a little thrill out of savouring the donuts one by one, something which I have not done in a long while. (: And I agree that chocolates are a girl's good friend! Followed by bubble tea, hehehe. Makes one happier, so yes, it's good. (:

Bumped into Elaine by chance at Marks n Spencer, and I ended up meeting the IJ girls for dinner at TCC afterwards! It was really a stroke of luck that I met her. (: Feels really really good to be able to see them and catch up with the girls after so long. Elaine, Nicole, Hui Min, and Hui Zhen. It's a pity Jaclyn and Agapera couldn't join us. It's been, say... a year? Yeah. Well, some things never change. (: And ah, I rediscovered my cheap thrill at trying on high heels in the shoe shops, HAHAHA.

Life's good to me so far I guess, and so I shouldn't be complaining, but instaed I should practice what I preach - to be content with what I already have. It's pretty hard though, and with each day that passes there's always something that pops up to test my patience, so I'm not really enjoying my life at the moment. There are still little waves of emotions that sweep me off my feet and at times I do fall pretty hard, but I do try to pick myself up. After all, I only have one life to lead.

I do admit though, that I always let the insecurities consume me whenever I'm alone, and by now I believe that loneliness is really only felt by those who have had the first taste of love. Which is why I'm still struggling to keep afloat even when I don't have my lifejacket with me, or why I remind myself that I am capable of singing a song without the music playing.

This was not what I had thought it would be, but I have no choice but to accept it, and I believe that I will be alright at the end of the day. (:

Listening to Cyndi Lauper, Time After Time.

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Thursday, August 6, 2009, 10:12 PM
Mr Tickles.

The welcome ceremonies today were not bad, and I especially loved the lighting up ceremony! Loved the torches that were shining their beams off the ceiling of the tall and mega-huge Nanyang Auditorium, almost like being in some exciting concert hall. (: The photo on my matriculation card doesn't look very nice, and whenever I see it I feel like frowning, but haha, I'll live with it. And there's the interesting looking clicker! Cool stuff. All in all, not a bad day. But I didn't get my laptop today! Do I hear someone going AWWW... Guess it's only me, haha! I shall exercise my patience ( again ) and wait till school starts. Now I'm just wondering how school will be like! (:

I'm currently tired and just staring at the bright yellow Mr Tickles that I got from my SP. Sigh. I want a smiley face just like his! (:

It's about time I tuned my body clock back to the school mode, cos I am still very unaccustomed to the idea of school at the moment. The idea just floats in my head like a dull piece of wood, and I'm like, urgh, can't get rid of that stupid piece of thing. This cohort of Sociology students is way bigger than the past cohorts, and it just reminds me of JC days, when the teacher-student ratios were relatively significant. The professors are a really friendly bunch, so I'm good with that.

Hmmm. I miss Cunzheng. Feels like a long time since we last did something fun together, though it's only been 3 days. But! He's been busy practicing his dance moves really hard for rag ( which is this Saturday! ), and I'm very proud of him (: Jiayou!

This song has been playing all day in my head ever since it was being performed by the HSS Jam Band, so here goes.

Lucky - Jason Mraz
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

[ chorus ]

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

[ chorus ]

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh


-- With love,

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 12:29 PM
Hermit hermit hermit.

HI.
This is a random post.
I'm just stoning my day away.

I am blogging on a tuesday afternoon! That also means that I'm stuck at home with nothing to do. Hello, supper or just a meal together, anyone? (: I've no particular place I want to go but I do miss meeting everyone else. It's been 6487364378 years since I last saw anyone. Haha.

The computer guy is coming tomorrow! I hope he fixes the computer well for me. (:

Ahh I'm too free for my own good. Okay okay I shall be thankful. Well. This is probably the last days of my holidays already, so I really shouldn't be grumbling about having free time now. Hmmm. Can't imagine how school will be like, travelling to and fro between khatib and boon lay, and having lectures and tutorials all over again. Seems just like JC days, though I'm being cautiously optimistic about it at the moment, heh. Sure hope I'll survive well!

Already it seems like many things are not on my side. I'm currently feeling like I belong neither here nor there, and it's like I'm starting anew again. Which is good, cos now I'm given a clean slate to begin with. Well, almost. (:

It's kinda sad whenever I realise that it's Pulau NTU that I'll be headed for everyday in the next 4 years to come, cos really, it deserves to be called an island on its own. Albeit a self-sufficient one. And why is it that NUS is so happening but it's so quiet here. Hmpphh.

And having to plan my timetable, and what electives to take is driving me crazy. There's so many interesting electives that I want. Okay okay I shall not be greedy and wait to see what's available. Owwww I can't wait to get my laptop! Please say I can get it this Thursday! Ahhhh. Apple apple and more apples, please make my day! (:

And I want to be pretty for school toooo. Hmpphh.
Makes me so excited whenever I think about random things like kite-flying, ice-cold mango marguerita, a Macbook Pro, and suntanning in a bikini. HAHAHA.

Okay I'm starting to weird myself out. Byebye till tomorrow, perhaps.




Monday, August 3, 2009, 3:01 PM
This is a feeling I should learn to trust.

This is probably the month where alot of activities are buzzing.

I'm still pretty much annoyed with my timetable, and am desperate to do some swapping. But I've since learned to just calm down and wait. *Breathes* If everything remains status quo after all, then so be it; at least I tried to do somethng about it. Right? Right.

Absolutely cannot wait to lay my hands on my own laptop; you see, my home desktop is currently down, and I've resorted to using Audrey's lappy to do all the checking of emails and stuff, so it's kinda frustrating when things aren't moving along the direction I want them to. Thank god for my dear sister. I'm grateful for Cunzheng's help and advice too; thanks dear. (:

Like a flower under rain
Like a child's first day
Like a story's first page
Watch our love come to life
Love is not a thing to rush
It's a feeling you should trust
It'll be that way with us
Watch our love come to life

Marie Digby's songs never fail to accompany me on the quieter days.

Dental today went pretty well; bumped into Ken Han on the way there and then Yvonne on the way back. Haha. And I've got our national flag colours this time, whee. Happy National Day Singapore! Hope the white colours can stay, well, white. Heh. For fun, joy, peace and laughter. (:

I'm waiting; for my Macbook, for my timetable to finalise, for the electives... for 6 years to come, and so many more. Life is such a long learning process that happens when you least expect it to. Please grant me patience, and a clearer mind. Thank you.