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Thursday, November 29, 2007, 10:51 AM

"Do you know what it feels like to be free, I mean really free?"




Tuesday, November 27, 2007, 10:11 PM

its good to be free (: happy.




Monday, November 26, 2007, 4:59 PM

Lost Thoughts

by Sharry Adams

I heard a whispered word upon the wind,
Teasing and toying with my every sense.
It was laughing and crying all at once,
Consoling, yet begging to be consoled.
I tried to catch it, but it flittered by,
Always one step ahead of my attempts.
Laughing and dancing the whole afternoon,
I tried to grasp the elusive.
Tired by my efforts, I sat to rest.
In a bed of flowers, I found repose.
Sleep numbed my body, relaxed my mind,
And that elusive word then kissed my dreams.




4:38 PM

I'm selfish, impatient & a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

perhaps one day, i'll pass by you on the streets and not recognise who you are anymore.




Sunday, November 25, 2007, 8:55 AM

had a dream last night; it was so surreal i was jolted awake. you know those dreams where you feel like you're suddenly sucked away and start falling down through earth or something? you jolt awake in bed. yeah that was it.

now i'm fully awake. at least awake, i think.

people go away, plans change, people change. expectations change. yet this wasnt the memory that i wanted of you. and its just too hard to watch it all, slowly fade away. i should have known that, it wouldnt be easy to meet those expectations; i just didnt know the consequences of not.

social outcasting? an alienation?

or is it just my belief system thats clashing against yours?

you are spontaneous, you are out-going; i am less so. you loathe people for their differences, whatever they are; i am one of them. you enjoy partying and play; i prefer the books and music.

do opposites really attract?

you know, maybe we need time to cool off. thank you for teaching me a valuable lesson in life.




Saturday, November 24, 2007, 9:01 PM

Everybody's always talkin' at me
Everybody's tryin' to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talkin'
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go
Did you ever not know

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own
It's such a scary place
Ooh
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do
Is believe




Friday, November 23, 2007, 11:03 PM


a word was a powerful thing. an insult didnt have to be shouted at you to make you bleed; a vow didnt have to be whispered to make you believe. but i never expected you to be someone like.. that. i am disappointed, i really am. friends since pre-school; friends till now. i dont know how to trust you anymore. i dont know how to trust anyone anymore.

the worse thing is, you make me hate myself so much, i dont think i can ever find the words to forgive myself.

or you.




Tuesday, November 20, 2007, 11:05 AM

i'm feeling in-between happy and sad. its a sucky feeling.


One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so


until i can forgive myself.




Monday, November 19, 2007, 10:33 PM





10:08 PM

it feels good to be able to share good times with friends.
it feels good to be happy.
it feels good to be Angie all over again.



i wonder, how long will this feeling last?



then i realise that i dont have to find the answer to that question; for it lies in front of me.
sigh.




Sunday, November 18, 2007, 11:16 PM

sometimes i want to be different, to be someone outstanding. on other occasions i wish that i could be just like anyone of them, and not feel alienated or left out.

but most of all i want to be myself.




10:56 AM

i wish i could be a hermit crab,

but i guess i already am one.




Thursday, November 15, 2007, 4:35 PM


Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open




Wednesday, November 14, 2007, 7:15 PM

its interesting how time really flies when you're so preoccupied with a task at hand. it practically shuts away everything else. leaving nothing but you, alone. i like it actually.


And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
 I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves


and now my shelves are packed, the room is tidier. during that 5 hours, i came across notes, photos, letters.. items i thought were long-lost, yet found once again. i took time to read each and every single one of them, feeling a tug at my heart as words and memories leapt at me, screaming in my head the happy images and times we once had.

i found my orange envelope, now dusty and frayed at the edges, the inside stuffed with notes, letters. with a heart that says, 加油安琪; with the emboldened thank-yous.. i never thought they'd mean that much.

i found the council's restructure proposal, and i smiled to myself. i guess we made it after all.

i found the EXCO's letter to the press, complete with lester's signature on it; my heart swelled with pride. for god knows why.

i found the long-lost humongous red pen that the o1 adhoc bought during logistics shopping; now its tucked into the box labelled "29SC", along with other things.


i knew i left a part of me when i left council. but i'm glad i found it back.




Tuesday, November 13, 2007, 10:32 PM

its really difficult to do something when your heart isnt in it at all. especially when you've been through the same thing over and over again, till it burns a scar into you.

listening to Bleeding Love, by Leona Lewis

i wonder whats wrong with everyone these days; out of sorts and listless. i have no heart to reach across and try to figure out why; i dont have the courage to see anyone upset now. for i feel no right or privilege to extend any helping hand..

for their faces may simply be a reflection of mine.




4:43 PM

is it just me,

or has my life come to a standstill.

where nothing else pricks the tiniest hole to peek into my day, where my thoughts run free from wherever they are, where the sky spreads like a virgin sheet for my imagination, where the world shuts itself from me.

or is it the other way round.

this silence is getting too stifling.




Monday, November 12, 2007, 5:16 PM

my first chemistry lesson today was a flop; i wonder how i even got past that scene? ah, heck about it.

there was a huge flurry after the physics paper today; within ten minutes the school cleared, the buzzing and murmuring travelling away. i too, was caught up in the midst of discussion, but i couldnt seem to put myself anywhere despite the excitement.

for that split second, i felt so lost. maybe i was being the foolish one who refused to see reality, so crystal clear as it was. move on my dear, move on.


Tear drops
Paint the faces
Despair
Is contagious
Dressed in black
Clutching a red rose
Hold on, hold on, hold on, my love goes on

When the lights are out
Don't be sad for long
When I'm gone
And the lights are out
I'll be shining on
I'm just gonna let my life bleed on this letter
Let my song sing on forever
I'll still love you when I'm gone


because i was the only one who forgot.




Sunday, November 11, 2007, 2:24 PM

If there were a stack of fortune-telling cards for me to choose, one that would tell how my future would be, I would be most willing to do so.

On second thought, would I? Will I let a card dictate how i should live my life from that moment on?

Perhaps, not.


If you want my future forget my past,
If you wanna get with me better make it fast,
Now don't go wasting my precious time,
Get your act together we could be just fine.


Chemistry lectures for the J1s are starting tomorrow; I wonder if being back in school would feel any different from what it used to be?




Friday, November 9, 2007, 12:44 PM





A few more random photos from the ECP trip yesterday.
I finally finished reading Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes; i love it. I can almost feel the exact feelings that Peter Houghton felt. In fact, I almost sympathise with him, the lost kid who didnt receive the love he gave, who didnt find a meaning for his existence on this earth.
"Love was supposed to move mountains, to make the world go round, to be all you need, but it fell apart at the details."




9:25 AM

I am very much captivated by Jodi Picoult's craft of storytelling.

"When you dont fit in, you become superhuman. You can feel everyone's else's eyes on you, stuck like Velcro. You can hear a whisper about you from a mile away. You can disappear, even when it looks like you're still standing right there. You can scream, but nobody hears a sound.

You become the mutant who fell into the vat of acid, the Joker who cant remove his mask, the bionic man who's missing all his limbs, and none of his heart.

You are the thing that used to be normal, but that was so long ago, you cant even remember what it was like."

- Nineteen Minutes, Jodi Picoult


Its a miracle how life is filled with so many what-ifs, yet still revolve around the one thing that had happened to each and every single one of us here. Every night i lie awake for that few moments before sleeping, and recall that day's events like a scroll of microfilm. Without fail, i'd eventually fall asleep wishing i had done something else instead of the other. Like that connection in the midst of all thoughts, evanescent as a butterfly that lands on your hand, kind of snapped.




Wednesday, November 7, 2007, 11:06 AM







Tuesday, November 6, 2007, 11:05 AM

i'm back from pulau ubin; not tanned at all, just bruised from the cycling. all in all its been fun (:

i went away hoping to find some release. somehow i didnt.

cycling through the rocky paths gave me the thrills, the adrenaline; the breeze down by the shores gave me tranquility; the sunsets gave me love, and a sense of warmth.

yet it couldnt give me back that feeling i lost.



perhaps one day, i'll meet you once again on the streets, yet not recognise you anymore.




Saturday, November 3, 2007, 8:39 PM

my elbow's swelling! and the scary thing is, i can almost feel the bone shifting about. yucks, gross. and i thought its perfectly healed. well, it hurts. boo. what a spoiler.

expectations, expectations. i am in a huge hurry to meet them all. but god, i am only human.

"Mary Jane"

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

Cause time has taken back
Everything I thought we had

Mary Jane..

Could it be
Nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Oh whatever happened to
Ooh ooh
Mary Jane




Thursday, November 1, 2007, 6:38 PM

its hard to lie and feel good about it. especially when you're lying to yourself.
things happen, people change, they move away.
so take it, or leave it.