Still, back to basics.
she says,
angie lim.
likes her songs and iPod,
her books and whatnots,
and much more.
tagged,
links,
four4two2
ohsixtwoOne
aaron
amal
anqing
bernadette kor
chuxian
edmund
hekming
jeremy
jeslynn
joel
kailing
kaiying
katrina
lester
lynn
meiying
pingchong
renkai
simon
sokhua
veronica
weihao
xuewei
yvonneLIM
ziwei
archive,
January 2006February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
Thursday, June 28, 2007, 10:53 PM
as mervis would put it, i concussed from 3 pm to 7 pm just now. it was a nice sleep. one more week to go. then i'm gonna take a full day off. yay.i'm seriously bored! screams. currently listening to.. candyman (:
i'm beginning to appreciate my life a little more these days. despite studies and mugging, despite everything else.
time to look forward girl.
12:39 PM
shagged! physics left me with a major headache. awww. the rest of the papers were so-so, i hope it'll be better than blocks at least.cross my fingers. and toes.
anyway, these days have been a flurry of mugging sessions in 3-47. friendships are forged again, the laughter louder than ever, feels like (second) home.
i'm off to walkwalk around amk hub, starting on statistics tmr. yayness.
Sunday, June 24, 2007, 12:19 AM
aye the week has come and gone. just the weekends left, just the books and TYS and me. this is WAR. i was telling hekming that i worked my way into memorising for the various mechanisms by the analogy that the electrophiles and nucleophiles are charging ahead like warriors to attack the molecules. sounds stupid, but it works for me.really, i'm getting so sick and tired of mugging like i am doing now. its a routine thats boring me right out, but the only consolation that gets me going is the fact that - i'm not alone in this. HAH. all you people out there, hang on.
the "in" thing these days is to get all moody and emotionally sensitive towards the most miniscule thing thats happening. thing is, its like a contagious disease that affects not one, but most likely two, or more. and the best seats in the house? room 3-47. this whole week has been a tiring one indeed. perhaps not so much for me, since i'm merely the spectator (:
anyhow, i'm sure things will work its way out.
as for now, i'm still trying to find a proper way out of this mess i'm in. give me a hand will you?
and i really appreciate people who make an impact in my life, just by their sincere touch. thank you yvonne lim. and everyone else too. loves (:
Wednesday, June 20, 2007, 11:45 PM
buses and trains
random song i heard over the radio on class 95, but its.. nice i guess (x enjoy
11:11 PM
thank you to you guys.hey, i'm not angie for nothing y'know? c'mon (:
Tuesday, June 19, 2007, 10:28 PM
from me, to me.you're loved. by me. "cos people are all the same; we only get judged by what we do.. and if i'm ugly then so are you, so are you.." you've your style, you live your life. heck about the rest, its about time you found your way out.
"they showed me that they loved me for who i am."
you havent got much, but you'll do with what you have. its all part of growing up.
10:00 PM
today started out on a good note. but it ended with the hurtful truths. so perhaps i should just stay home and keep away from the world in future. dammit! these were girls whom i didnt know, never met before, yet when they saw me, the words they whispered to each other were simply too much for me to take. i heard them. i couldnt help it. the words were like daggers hurled at me, i felt like flinging them back into their faces, right there and then. but i couldnt. i didnt dare. so what if i'm an ugly girl with pimples and short fat thighs not fit for the shorts i'm wearing. so what if i'm not pretty or good enough to have a boyfriend. not that i even want one anyway! i guess i've always kept these nasty thoughts chucked aside in my head but dammit,its so hurtful to even say that out. i thought i might break down then, but i threw back some words at them, which till now i dont know what the hell in the world did i do that for. all i know is, i left them speechless. i could tell, the way they looked at me, a patronising look, for they scorned me; i just turned and walked away. i walked so fast, my feet hurt, i was already crying, i felt like a mess.. but one thing's for sure; i took that one chance to stand my ground. is it relief or is it the hurt that i feel? its both; i'm still coming to terms with who i am and how others see me physically, and its really difficult. really, sometimes i look at the girl in the mirror and almost immediately i turn away, for she looks hideous to me. but today, for once, i dont feel sorry for myself.maybe thats what they call it, accepting your true self. i dont know. cos it hurts.
typing out this ugly post is taking me alot of courage already, while it doesnt make me feel any better yet. i guess for now the inferiority complexes are back.
just, leave me alone.
1:00 AM
so this is who i really am. but i've been so blind all these while, i didnt know where i was headed for. i just hope that it isnt too late to salvage the worst.
"people are all the same; we only get judged by what we do.. cos if i'm ugly, then so are you.." - sugarbabes' Ugly.
like what xuewei says, its all part of growing up. how complicated. and i dont like it one bit. but i have got to learn my mistakes.
me and my sister gonna pull a trick on my parents tmr when they return from Genting. HOHOHAHA cant wait.
the mids are drawing so near, i'm scared.
Monday, June 18, 2007, 1:07 AM
chow, revision is getting too darn SLOW. i've barely touched chemistry :( and its very tempting to watch the tv and do crossword puzzles rather than do the TYS. heh. i know i'm not the only one complaining cos my second sister is in this with me too. haha. that makes two of us in this family, while the rest go holidaying at Genting Highlands. i need a remedy, quick! to rest my unsettling mind.. go angie go angie go go go! HAHA self entertaining is fun.on my playlist now is the goo goo dolls - iris. ciao.
"well you bleed just to know you're alive."
Thursday, June 14, 2007, 11:19 PM
listening to Butterfly Kisses by Westlife. nice and sweet song (: 11:53 AM
borrowed aunt's laptop to blog. am at ah ma's house today, dont know what the occasion is but i'm helping her bao ba zhang. y'know, the triangular lumps of glutinous rice (: the ba zhangs are yummy, and they take my mind off work for a while.so i also realised that, being the eldest of all the cousins can be both fun and yet irritating. fun! because they let you relive how it was like in your childhood. a carefree child is a happy child! though honestly, they have hightech gadgets to play with, their PSP and gameboys etc, when back then i ate those little bobdog sticks of candy, munching on doraemon choclate balls, playing football with the neighbourhood kids. rather irritating because they tend to get into troubles and accidents every now and then, during which they'll either yell for their moms or they'll clamour for me to help them.
but i like them all. the little ones, the ones nearer my age, all are smiles and a joy to have. i hear my name being called now; tata.
its little dexter who is screaming for me; i'll bet he wants me to do something. HAHA.
Monday, June 11, 2007, 10:49 PM
yvonne's sisters are very humourous and friendly people (: xuewei and i had a very good laugh at their house today ((:dang it, i have lost all inspiration to blog. day in day out i've been going through the same routines - wake up, bathe, eat, study, study, STUDY, eat, rest, off to slumberland, and the cycle goes again. honestly, what can a JC2 student preparing for her midyears do but mug? this is depressing.
the stuff that makes me happy as i study would be the joy and laughter that people around me bring (: all the funny things that we do? it becomes highly contagious.
fret not, i'm not insane yet. i am still the angie that i am.
i'm currently listening to the tunes of the GATSBY advertisement; its pretty catchy and it goes all swoony and makes you hum along with it. HAHA. like nonstop y'know?
oh, i didnt mention that today's my younger sister's 11th birthday. hoho, here's to you annie, happy birthday (:
Friday, June 8, 2007, 9:53 PM
today's 8june. time is flying far too fast for me to slow down even a bit. everything's a blur. and the only solace i can seek is the books and notes that i'm poring over.and let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.
i like the sound of this quote. i'm gonna apply myself to it.
everything's so difficult to grasp, and i'm barely hanging on.. C'MON YOU CAN DO IT ANGIE. go for it.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007, 11:19 PM
surprisingly, i log onto gmail everytime i switch on the computer; without fail (: the mails do not come in as often (not even one in a few days to come) and yet its become a space of solace for me. i've accumulated a grand total of 685 gmails, all sorted into the various labels. beams. i know i know, i'm mad. but who cares?! haha.randomness. rahh. i'm multitasking with my math worksheets and notebook now; my mom just chided me for that. oops. tata world.
oh when i need you
you're almost here
and i know thats not enough
cos you're only almost here.
10:36 PM
today xuewei, bingliang and i went to yvonne's house to study. some very jing dian things happened, with various people involved (namely us).1. xuewei read about several episodes of countries in conflict over land and fishing and blah. (history you see) she almost fainted from reading the long stories. "why must they quarrel over fish, now i have to study about their silly arguments." - xuewei
2. yvonne refused to boil water to make the TOTARLLY jelly; we had to wait till her mom came home to prepare it for us. we teased her the whole afternoon!
3. bingliang kept emphasising that i was being efficient today simply cos of his presence. i kept rolling my eyes at him, haha. ok la, maybe its true.
4. xuewei used paper clips to pin her hair up! she used small ones; the ultra big one was a no-no.
5. she also drew a diamente watch for me using her brown marker. its still on my wrist, the uber lopsided watch.
6. yvonne has been a diligent girl (: beams. good! jiayou*
there's more to come (:
i gotta buck up now; really put in more effort into my studies..
Monday, June 4, 2007, 7:33 PM
shrek-ed (: it was helluva funny show. and one thing's very true in this movie;
its only up to you to seek your destiny
and not let others define who you really are
they may call you a coward, a weakling, a fool,
but are you really one?
i've always lived by the belief
that in whatever i do,
i do it with my heart and soul.
i'm only just beginning to mould myself
my thoughts, my values, are all embedded in me; and i'm willing to do everything else
to the best of my abilities.
"its about time you did something for yourself."
i guess a little self-indulgence will not hurt; pardon me.