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Monday, July 31, 2006, 12:20 PM

am listening to this tune; its really soothing and nice. supposedly helps you keep a clear mind and stay focused.. i think its gone beyond that for me, and its making me think back bout certain days in the past. the bittersweet days. yep. nice warm and fuzzy memories; ok now the tears are threatening to come again. i'm COoL :] so i shant think so much again. not that i'll ever forget these days, and the laughter shared.-
i'm worried for xiao yi. i dont know what to say; now that she's feelin like the world's forgotten about her, and there's nobody there to hold her hands.. she's so frail, so weak; i miss her smiles, her jokes.. i pray that she'll be fine when the storm's over. i pray, that god will hear her calls. for now, i can only visit her and hope she'll cheer up. it aint gonna be easy, but have faith xiao yi. dont cry.. i want your smiles back!
life's like a deck of cards; when you have the lousy ones, keep playing on, for you'll never know when your luck will change, for the better.. its all about taking the right gamble, and jumping for the risk.
but i'm scared




Friday, July 28, 2006, 4:26 PM

recently i've been feelin' kinda detached from everything. i cant help but be disappointed in myself; its this dreaded feeling that you hve not done your part well. like you've let the whole world down and everyone's slowly moving away from you.. its so lonely up here, at the top of the mountains. i'm trapped in my own world! help me snap outta it. and looking fierce/bored/angry/upset when i dont smile certainly doesnt help, cos i dont wanna walk ard sch looking like a love-sick girl with a plasterd smile. lols. i'm losing faith in myself, so remind me to smile when you bump into me, whether in school or outside. i dont wanna look dao!




Thursday, July 27, 2006, 2:35 PM

i'm a shadow that stands behind curtains
for nobody sees me
and they never will
just a passing shadow that vanishes
and is forgotten
a fleeting moment
before i cry
hiding behind a masquerade of joy
teach me how to smile
and not to frown
i dont want to be left behind
wont you pick me up?
wont you walk with me?
no?
i'm here
solitary, scared, scarred
i see those smiles
and try to mirror them
but they just dont reflect
who i really am
what am i?
cos i know i'm not living up to expectations
i've failed
in things i've done
and in what i did not do

most importantly
i can count on you all
to help me whenevr i stumble
and fall on my knees




Monday, July 24, 2006, 8:50 AM

my face is still looking pretty much like the bottom of a baboon and its beginning to peel a lil on my nose and cheeks, OUCH. now theres patches of pink and red, patches that remind me of a COW. mooOO. tsktsk haas. oh yes and i just finished my EoM draft 1 :) haha yep i'm feeling a teeny weeny bit happier now.
tmr evening that's gonna be tuition at the salvation army. i remember sherilyn. what a nice name. she's a brightheaded girl,and she does her math pretty well too. am looking forward to seeing her again tmr night. i think we all look forward to tutoring these kids too, right 0621?

i'm off to cook spaghetti for dinner now. my fav suace is the cheesy one with loads of chunky potato and mushroom, but mom prefers the tomato mushroom flavor. oh well. haha its been eons since i last cooked dinner..




Sunday, July 23, 2006, 1:55 AM

my underarms and upper arms are hot and burnin' like WHOA. after an afternoon out at sentosa with council, i left the place with a sunburn. yeps, all red like a lobster.
xiao yi, you must take good care ok. what's happend cannot be undone, but cherish what you still have. your youth, your husband, your friends.. we're all here to support you. most importantly, we love you so.
what else can i say?
i'm beginning to look at life in a slightly different perspective, in a different light. and i see so many new things as each day passes. i must learn to seek happiness and hope amidst my marah. i am still learning how to, so give me the time i need.

i'm off to start on my EoM now. i'm dreading it real badly. but oh well i've got to do someday! so.. might as well do it NOW. oh yes i finally completed my zuo wen and gp essay :) guys, prep up too!




Thursday, July 20, 2006, 6:11 PM



yeah. council. livin' it on and on...




Wednesday, July 19, 2006, 3:41 PM

its drizzling! and i'm currently using the council laptop haas. today's been pretty, well, fridayish. the timetable's a friday one, and gp was a tad boring, except that we discussed bout an article by mr brown. woots. by the end of one hour of gp full blast, hekming, dwayne and aaron were practically trying to lift the weight of sleep from their eyelids and its kinda amusing to see them nodding their way to slumberrland.
theres so many things i want to say, but seeing that everyone's happy, i'm content. just let me drown under the influence of their happiness :) so i'll be happy too!
oh well, i'm off to study for tmr's physics retest. i seriously dont think i'll be able to concentrate now, but i'll try, since nobody's at home and it can get too quiet in there if i'm the only one home.. yes lisa i'll need all the luck i can get! missd ya :)
bye world,




2:30 PM

i fell asleep on the bus ride home today and i had the freakiest dream. a short one, but nonetheless scary. in the dream i was a very ugly fatso *gasps* and evrytime i ate my stomach would bloat till my arms can no longer reach the dining table. imagine that! oh my god. then i woke up when i, the fatso in that dream, got so heavy i broke the chair i sat on. my goodness. that fall startled me so violently, i hit my head against the window *wham* now i've got a small cut on my forehead. ouch. hurts pls. still i shudder, oh my god, damn freaky. arghhh.
what if that day really comes! oh no!!
then now my sister says i'm thinking too much. man.




Tuesday, July 18, 2006, 4:39 PM

i've been spending evry single day in school till late; and for this i feel damn it guilty towards my family. urgh. i miss mom's soup. and the irony is, i'm losing touch with 'em. somehow its like i treat the hse as a hotel, easy come easy go. sad huh. i oughta spend some time with mummy, and daddy. i think the last time i watchd tv was with daddy: all the footbll matches that is. haas. then i think its been eons since i last watchd any tv show. oops. - i read the newspapers though. hah.
we playd MONOpoly in the storage room before the listening compre; i suay suay rolled 6 sixes and landed in jail. wth. anw i'm proud to know i'm the only one who holds this current record. legend. renkai monopolised the mrt lines, but i still held onto one haas.

ok gotta go now. byee.
and yes, i'm still in school.




Monday, July 17, 2006, 2:30 PM

"i've always had a dream of living in the countryside, waking up in the breezy morning to pluck strawberries in the orchard. i'd mingle with the stalks of wheat, let em tickle me pink. cheeks are all rosy and shining with radiance. i'd laugh and sing for joy; it feels so good to be alive! and by the evening, just sitting around in the house with loved ones, hot chocolate in hand; i'd love to lean on his shoulder and be warm despite the cool night.. :) it's nice, isnt it?"
as i've said, its a dream.




2:20 PM

i've always been a somewhat mild believer of horoscopes.
and most of d times they're so true i shudder, because its so surreal! tricia and jibin were discussing about how true the horoscpoes were today, and i thought, yeah.. perhaps. and being an aries i'm cursed to be brash and sometimes unthinkingly insensitive.. oops.
i think, thats so me. yeah i dont think when i speak. in diaries the words just come out and flow onto the papers... even in gp that seems to be the case. no wonder i dont plan anyting well enough to succeed.. be it studies or life.
guess i just take things as they go! haha :) go with the flow, as they always say. is this good or bad? both perhaps. now i feel like singing aloud. but nobody's listening..
will the dude with funky white beard up there ( yeah He's there ) hear me sing? with all the sincere listening ear and warm applauses? i think, maybe, maybe not..




1:45 PM



hello. here's some pics to brighten up the day :) hehe. cos i simply lovee my class!




12:55 PM

whoa i'm starting to feel so giddy! wahaha.
soooo many things going on! boy i'm in for the ride of my life :) and i'm glad today's been pretty productive fer me, since i've been mugging since eleven at amk library. cool huh. jibin, tricia, yanhao and yongkian were there too, so we did our dynamics tutorials and econs essay outlines and chinese too. how i wish everyday i cld concentrate like this..
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i just dont love you no more
rain outside my window pouring down
what now
you're gone
my fault
i'm sorry
feeling like a fool cos i let you down
now it's too late
to turn it around
i'm sorry for the tears i made you cry
i guess this time it really is goodbye
oh babe pls wont you stay;
i just dont love you no more
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ahhh so sad

i want the good days to come again!




Sunday, July 16, 2006, 10:42 AM

so freakin' busy these days!
i'm getting white hair *gasps* and i've lost two whole kg. like wow. i've never lost weight before. all the years its been yoyoing upwards, so i guess if you want to lose weight, join council! this is one thing i totally agree with kenhan!
the notice board's finally done up! and today's been pretty fulfilling for me i guess. soccer with the 28th was legendary. some injuries, bruises, cuts.. ouch. otherwise it was fun. i'vent playd for so long! sandar's an instinctive striker; choy and merrick were the da-niu that charged fullforce ahead; we all had our share of fun and play in this :) gr8 teamwork displayd for both sides i must say. cool.
then we stayd on to do up the noticeboard. niceee :) i'm lovin' it so much! ( though i still think i lookd kinda cheeky in the photo; lester lookd spastic. okay we all look the same way! ) and we're getting our council badges on monday morning. excited? definitely..
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and theres so many things piling up now! OMG i'm dying of suffocation somebody help me. PW math chinese chem physics econs GP; proposals too... wah i need more than 24 hours a day!
i am officially a PANDA. look at those eyerings! *pouts*
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and i'm hookd onto the song DONT LOVE YOU NO MORE by craig david. i cried when i heard it on the radio the first time, its so touching. like wow i've never been hit so hard by a song like this. wham! i'm blown off by the lyrics.. yeah call me a crybaby whatever. my tearducts malfunction.

tata;




Monday, July 10, 2006, 8:50 AM

the council events management course was... ok i guess. thou i felt most of the stuffs mr kenneth said were largely out of our scope? hmmm. take things with a pinch of salt.
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i lurve my four ij babes. jaclyn elaine zoe aga! i never thought i'd come to admit that i've missd you soooo much; and i'm glad we havent changed that much. at least not yet :) the dinner was gr8. fish n co has a really nice ambience. *winks* yes we are all still swinging free singles and we are absolutely in love with each other arent we? hahas. jaclyn you'd bettr send us the photos asap! i wanna have it now! :)
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last night i cldnt sleep at all. i thought back about the ppl i see recently and its like, so weird. i cant explain it. they've all changed; grown prettier, have their beloved boyfriends, cope well in school... so much as to glow and radiate that oh-my-god shine. it seems that they are happy. then i look at myself and i think, you're a couch potato, get a life!

" have you ever loved somebody so much
it made you cry?
have you ever tried to find the things you lost
but you cant sleep at night?
have you ever fought your thoughts
with the tears in your eyes?"
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you know what?
i am still moving on.
i only wishd i had lingered a lil longer; the memories that are still here. but i cant. i cant find myself anywhere there.
now things are picking up speed;
and theres no stopping i guess.
wish me luck-

and i thank you for giving me the shoulder to lean on.




Saturday, July 8, 2006, 1:20 PM

every relationship is like a game of cards
sadly, i havent been good at it.
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i got a cap from dad when he purchased some bodybuilding stuffs from the store and got it for free.
8.45pm. then he said to me
" i have faith in you; i know you tried. and i'm happy for you. i just want you to know that. "
he left the room, and the tears came.
i sat down and wrote in my diary. the pen flew vigourously across the page. the ink was smudged along the way, but i didnt stop. i couldnt.
i cried so hard. i still am.
sorry seems to be the hardest word.




Thursday, July 6, 2006, 5:00 PM

the moon was a sweet crescent last night.
not many stars, but i loved the sky. i smiled to myself but the tear came anyway. i couldnt help it. i really didnt know how or why.
in my head i see myself standing amongst the people, but they dont see me. they dont talk to me; i listened, i saw. and an overwhelming wave washes over me suddenly, like the sudden prick of pain by the needle. i felt lost.
and having received the results, i'm feel like i'm being swallowed whole by guilt; its so strong it hurts. to the core. right there and then i stiffened; i didnt know how else to refrain myself. the people come and go, passing by, barely speaking to me. they say its ok, and i nod my head to acknowledge that, but i know its not. something tells me i'm doomed. i'm scared. i dont know how to pick myself up from here.
i'm a disappointment.
silent treatment from mom is killing me. i'd rather she shout or say something. she doesnt. she's lost hope in me i guess.